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Werewolves on the Full Moon

Tonight is the full moon and it amazes me how much I am affected by the cycles of the moon.
Not only in my womanly cycles that seem to collide with this Lunar event but in my moods. After a wonderful day yesterday, where I felt invincible, I woke this morning lathargic and moody.

I am a Pisces and my son, who is the same also woke with his emotions on show. It made me think about the concept and purpose of this illumination in the dark, the full reflection of the sun in the night. Perhaps this cyclical event, like all cyclical events is the opportunity to heal some inner darkness, to light it up.

Maybe in order to do this we've got to see and experience them, the full moonlight shows them to us, usually hidden deep in the unseen parts of our minds. It also highlights our choices, our consciousness so that we can in this cycle bring more light to these aspects of ourselves that we suppress, that are uncomfortable for us to look at and hold as part of ourselves.

Today I can feel my werewolf of anxiety, stress and frustration but I'm vowing to let it see the light with kindness and comfort, accept its presence in order to facilitate its healing and to sooth its discomfort in being drawn out and exposed by the full illumination. 

To start with I spoke to my son who was angry & resistant about this change in me, rather than get into an ego battle about his behaviour, this truth instantly gave us a connection and his anger was settled. I felt sure that our ability to connect this morning was the acceptance of the truth of ourselves, that we are prone to shifts due to our sensitive nature and we can hold these in a space of acceptance and forgives, this instantly removes any fight and healing can begin. 

The tricky thing in the midst of emotion is actually finding the space to midndfully make a different choice, so now I am tracking the moon cycles so I can see if my moods are linked.  Knowing it's a moon thing reminds me to take a different tact, a more nourishing one for me and all around me.

Years ago I heard a saying about how all life is a choice in the moment; we can choose the wolf of love or the wolf of fear and I guess that's what I notice creeps in at these times, the fears, the pains.

Do you find you're moods are affected my the cycles of the moon?  What tactics do you use to help you when the fears creep in?  I'd love to hear, drop them in the comments below.

Sakina Ballard is a champion for the Maternal Mental Health Alliance and founder of Tranquil Birth. Come and say hi on Instagram @acacia.woman where I share my regular musings on motherhood and womanhood.


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